If you had asked me in the planning stages of my little adventure what I thought Rome would be like, I would have said something like “Amazing, for sure! Rome during Holy Week- it’s going to rock. I will see and understand the roots of my faith and of the whole of Western Civilization, and I will come away transformed and enlightened!” I wanted to like Rome. I was absolutely determined to like it.
I did NOT like Rome. At least not the first time around.
One always hates to admit to not liking a place, especially when it’s part of an awesome world-travelling trek. On this sort of trip you are supposed to be having the time of your life every second, and you don’t want to admit to yourself and other people that you aren’t! It kind of makes you look bad, like you just didn’t try hard enough. You Negative Nelly, you!
Well, listen, I gave it my dardest for five days straight and at the end of that time I still found my experience of the place to be very unpleasant. Which was disappointing. A line from The Princess Bride came to mind as I sat bedraggled and dismal on the bus after a trying first day in the city: “Get used to disappointment.” However, coming away from Rome the first time around I still felt that the experience, though miserable, was still valuable. In many ways more valuable than an easy and enjoyable one would have been. If nothing else it was certainly Lenten, so there you go! It’s been difficult for me to write about my days in the Eternal City because I needed a few days to move past my disappointment and wash the grit of Rome out of my hair, so to speak. Now, after a few days in sunny Barcelona drinking sangria and soaking up the smiles of the friendly locals, I’ve recovered and am ready to give Rome a fair treatment. I think.
| Roma Trastevere Train Station |
My first day in Rome, fresh off the train, I was confronted with what would become one of the main challenges of my stay. Get ready: The Roman Public Transport System. Adorned with graffiti and thoroughly grimy, crammed full of unattractive and unfriendly extremely pushy people, inefficient and disorganized, run by the least helpful officials I’ve ever had the pleasure of meeting… not user friendly, to say the least. It reads like a short list of all the things that offend my sensibilities and my temperament. Learning to navigate a route through the city using trains that aren’t labeled or on time, trams so full of people you can’t move, buses with inexplicable routes and the trashy sweaty metro system is going to be an ordeal no matter which way you slice it. For me, learning to do it mostly on my own was a complete nightmare. My first day in Rome, which was the most Lenten, it took me three hours of anxious and bewildered bus and tram switching in the hot sun packed in with mean smelly and trashy people to find my way back to my lodgings from the city center. I have never felt so alone and lost in my life.
| Practicing wine tasting with Keith |
Luckily, I was not alone in Rome. I was able to stay in the dorms of an American study abroad program with students from Thomas Moore and Ave Maria University, and their kindness and companionship were the bright spots in my stay. The very first night I arrived, they took me out in Trastevere where I experienced lamplit windy streets filled with chic bars and restaurants. Over my first bottle of Est! Est!! Est!!! and a giant cup of gelato I received tips and encouragement for my stay. Having my witty and wonderful cousin Keith in Rome was a huge bonus as well, both for practical advice and moral support. To be honest, I feel like without the connection to these people I would not have made it in Rome.
| The Villa- My Home in Rome |
And that is one of the most valuable lessons I gained from this experience. After five hours alone in walking through a crowded Vatican Museum I felt myself wanting to talk to someone- anyone- in order to relieve the tension of the experience of so much strangeness, strain, exhaustion and sensory overload. I had to laugh to myself as the dramatic last scene of Into the Wild played over and over in my mind. “Life… alone… not worth living…” For me, it was either laugh or cry as waves of self-pity swept over me at my aching feet, jostled hair, and general indignation at being treated by hundreds of people as an object in their path to be pushed out of the way.
So! I think I’ve done enough complaining and now that you have an idea of how I felt in Rome it’s time to be objective and actually talk about what I did in Roma. I was able to see quite a lot- the Vatican Museum, Trastevere, Piazza Navona, St. Peters, Trevi Fountain, many of the major churches including St. John Laterine and Chiesa de Gesu, the Coliseum, and lots of other famous monuments and piazzas etc. I ate gelato at least once a day and had a cappuccino every chance I got, went to a gorgeous Easter Vigil mass at St. Maria in Trastevere, prayed in front of the relics of the cross at Santa Croce on Good Friday, and bought myself an excessive number of scarves.
| First Cappuccino in Rome |
| "World's Best Cup of Coffee" |
Although my first five days in Rome were a gray haze of uncertainty, exhaustion and a million small trials, there were moments of light. Climbing to the top of St Peter’s Basilica and seeing Rome from the heights gave me a broader perspective on the city, both literally and figuratively. I was able to rise above the immediacy and triviality of my own frustration, and see the curious mish-mash of past and present, greatness and banality that is Rome. A place almost overshadowed by the past, where the greatest monuments of Western Civilization are the stuff of daily life. Gypsies and cheap souvenirs lean against the awe-inspiring walls of the Coliseum, and loud flashy tourists mix with quiet simple nuns.
| On the top of St Peter's |
I felt the hope that after Barcelona, when I returned to Rome for a few days before leaving for Greece, I might grow to have an affection for the city. As to whether that happened or not, you’ll have to wait till the post after next to find out! Sunny Barcelona is the subject of my next post, and I can’t wait to write about the sights and sounds of Spain. A little preview: